Sadid's Blog

It has been a while that I don't quite feel myself. I tried to calm myself down, I tried to pray. But I still feel like something is just not right maybe its because I'm not really into my prayer, I don't know. At first, I thought it might be because I haven't done anything much for my exam this coming Saturday, coz I really haven't studied much. It took me awhile to study and tried to feel normal again, but I just couldn't, maybe it's because of my excessive sleep that I've had. Later, I just randomly called home, I don't know why, I just did. It was great to know that everyone's home, and everything is going okay, but then I was like called to ask my sister, "Abah ade?", and my sister replied, "ade, baru balik, da 10 hari da abah mc", I was puzzled, mc?? 10 days?? balik dari mane?? Then I asked again, "haa?", (I know, its not the usual question a person would ask), "ko xtaw ker? abah baru balik hospital, tu la ko, kje blaja jer", I replied, "ye la, ape jadi?", she answered "ko engat tak abah ade bengkak tuh?, bende tuh da mrebak ke tempat laen pulak", now it is more confusing. I asked "pebende tuh?", she replied "cancer, abah baru abes wat chemotheraphy", I was really shocked. Maybe that's why I haven't been feeling good.

Then my sister continues, "abah ok kut, cume doktor kate abah kne kuat semangat la,". After hearing that, tears rolls down my cheek. I could only wish that I can be by his side right now. Giving him spirit that he needed, helping out with the house chores and everything. O Allah, please give him strength to overcome the obstacles you laid for him.

It has been awhile since I talked to him, please Allah give me chance to see him again.

ZUL SAYANG ABAH - never got the chance to actually say that to him..