{ Posted on Friday, February 26, 2010 by Sadid }
A dream is a succession of images, thoughts, sounds, or emotions passing through the mind during sleeping.

I've been wondering, what does a dream tells you? What does it represent? When do we know if there's any message in it? When do we know if it's nothing but the shaytaan doings? Or is it our own wants that we don't share with the people around us?

In the last few days, I've been seeing myself in Malaysia, doing things that I really wanna do and need to do, as in having my specs done (its expensive if you wanna have a new specs here in Canada, even just for an eye exam will cause you $70 [crazy]), getting a haircut (also expensive here), and last but not least hanging out with my family and friends. The most exciting part of it is that every time I dreamed myself in such condition, I'll feel unease as I will wonder about getting back here to Edmonton like who's paying for my tickets, what about my classes and so on.

Why do I have such dreams almost every night for the past week? I don't know. After having some thought about it, I think maybe I just wanna be in the presence of my family, I kept on dreaming about the last time I got myself into an accident in Kajang, and got my left leg injured, I feel like, wanna be in the condition where I got my parents looking over me, got no homework to worry about, things like that. Maybe that's the cause? I'm not sure myself.

My friends say that maybe I just wanna be back in Malaysia regardless of my condition. Maybe. I've looked into some sites on info on dreams, but it doesn't tell me much. Maybe I've not searched thoroughly (of course! I got midterm tomorrow and the day after, what do you expect? haha).

Anyways, just wanna let that thing out of me for awhile, gotta focus on midterms.


{ Posted on Saturday, February 20, 2010 by Sadid }
"A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are."


How many times that when you're at your desk thinking that it would be nice to have something to eat, and suddenly a friend came by giving you treat of the day? How many times a person comes up to you saying that he or she will be available for help whenever you need help? What do you call that friend? Is it just a friend?

Well I have been like that everyday since last Thursday and I tell you that it was awesome. Yes, I don't feel really comfortable with it cause it does feels like I'm troubling the people around me. Sometimes, I wonder what did I do to deserve all this? (dunno why I think too much sometimes, maybe my head is still dizzy). I also wanna take this opportunity to thank to those who helped me and will be helping me (hehe). Let us all make du'a for each other.

(Errr, for those who doesn't understand, I actually overstretched my ligament on my left knee last Wednesday while snowboarding. So, it's kinda hard for me to move around and do stuff. )

Anyways, still got approximately 6 weeks to recover (insyaAllah -hope so), MRI appointment, sports doctor appointment, and most importantly 4 midterms coming up.

I pray to Allah so that, life will be easier for my friends and myself. May us all be blessed by Him. Amin.

Love you guys!

Reading week

{ Posted on Sunday, February 14, 2010 by Sadid }

A senior once told, "They started reading week as the surveys and statistics show that people especially students killed themselves during this week".

So indirectly, this week is for us to loosen ourselves a bit from the stress and tension of exams or midterms.

Yesterday, I started my reading week with a trip to Rabbit Hill playing snowboard. I was so excited, it has been 2 weeks (which feels like a year [just wanna show how badly I wanna go for snowboarding]) that I haven't go out for snowboarding. It started of okay, I did a couple of run before I hit the ramp for jumping. My jump was okay, fell down twice. But then, I don't know, I was going for a small ramp with the normal speed which I used to go for a ramp, I was flying high, the thrill was awesome, but I landed badly, so much so that I landed on my chest and my face. My nose was bleeding, I was spitting out blood, my head feels really dizzy at that time, I couldn't breathe well. It was the first time ever that I had to lay for awhile after falling from a jump.

It was a terrible moment for me, but just wanna have a check on myself, I tried moving my nose to the right and left, just to make sure it doesn't broke, alhamdulillah it was okay. Then I tried feeling my teeth using my tounge, alhamdulillah no tooth fell out. I tried to get up and carve my way down the hill, and I feel okay. Then I took a rest for awhile, washed my face and my mouth and sit for a while with some friends. What makes it even better is that I lost my phone while snowboarding.

All that kinda reminded me on what my parents used to say "mula-mula gelak, nanti nangis", I think I was over-excited. That what makes it like what just happened I guess.

Now, I'm feeling a lot better after a goodnight sleep, and by the way, I got back my phone from a young Canadian boy, alhamdulillah. So its quite okay now.

Have a great reading week, go out and loosen yourself, but not too much, too much of anything is not good.

Looking above and below

{ Posted on Wednesday, February 10, 2010 by Sadid }
People like to compare things, stuff and sometimes themselves. What for?

I've been comparing myself and my friends, even talked to myself like " why haven't I studied 24/7 during my times in Taylor's, if I have, I'm sure to get more awards", something like that. I thought it was okay for me just to have that thought and nothing more, maybe just for inspiration to do even better here in U Of Alberta.

Just recently, I've read a hadith that goes,

"When one of you looks at one who stands at a higher level than you in regard to wealth and physical structure he should also see one who stands at a lower level than you in regard to these things."
narrated by Muslim

Its hard to remain thankful to Allah if you keep on comparing ourselves to those who are given better wealth, nicer possessions, higher status, etc. All this is a common cause for us showing ingratitude towards Allah. We will then automatically disregards the blessings that Allah has bestow upon us. We fell like things are lacking in our lives.

Do remember that, Allah is the Originator of All that is Good / Khair. Nothing comes from him is not good. Maybe we tend to see something as bad, but little that we know, maybe its a blessing in disguise. So as a muslim, we should always say alhamdulillah for the things that we have and maybe the things we don't have.